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Hey for anyone who still reads this journal: I live in California now. It's so different so far but I'm sure I will get used to it. Traffic is horrendous but the weather and people are so nice.

I have been engrossed with my fashion blog: fashiongrunge.com

check it out!

Hope all is well!

If you could be another person for a day, who would it be and why?

I would be Krist Novoselic or Dave Grohl. Just so that I could have known Kurt Cobain.

Hey,

So apparently my life is so interesting that I need to have two journals to keep up. I had been using blogspot but Vanessa begged me to come back to LJ. I hope that she is reading this because I am updating this old thing finally.
I finally quit my job at that sham consignment store because my boss was a raving psycho and I got a job at Urban Outfitters here in Georgetown. I am so glad because there is no dress code. At my old place our boss slapped us with a bullshit 3 page dress code. I was so miffed about that! let me tell you...

The most exciting thing is that I have figured how to make podcasts on my computer, and for those who don't know what that is..its pretty much a mixtape with me talking and introducing each song. I have compiled a format that works pretty good. Its awesome cause I am sharing my music and now I'm not hoarding all my amazing music to myself. Its weird cause now some of my international friends can hear my voice because i usually write emails..They also dont get half of the bands I play in Iceland, Italy, South Africa and Germany. So, I know that all of them are happy about my new hobby.

I will send them out in a email every sunday night and the links are only good for 7 days so dont forget to listen!

i welcome feedback on the show! I hope it keeps going and I hope that Vanessa can find some good bands that will help her get out of her music rut that she is currently in!

hasta.

Hey i dont update this anymore..I've moved to a new blog and its

http://talesofaslackerartist.blogspot.com/

Ill check this to read friends pages..but not to update my journal...

so if you want to know about whats going on in my boring life then head to the blogspot

peace.

this will make for an extremely "hot" summer!!

and you guessed it..the first is none other than my future designer best friend:Marc Jacobs.

lately i have been feeling like this combination person..like people havent gotten to see all sides of me..this recently occured to me when i got back from italy..some people dont know the writer who is obsessed secretly with nirvana,kurt cobain and has recently discovered the essence and passion of grunge music..
nowadays i have been painting and the fact that i am becoming an artist is shocking me...i never thought of myself as an artist..ever...it just seems like photography just happened..im not in the art scene and i dont know the whole scene...ive been to galleries and im enjoying the fact that this year it will be different..

im having a weird quarter life crisis as john mayer puts it..ive been writing more and more and its really calming my nerves..also the intesity of my strokes as the brush touches the canvas is unreal..its like i can look at each stroke and know the intention behind it..mostly i want someone else to see it too...that would be the most incredible feeling..like im creating art so someone else knows why...

photos are different..i just try to capture moments after a rainstorm or after during a blizzard in my head..not literally all the time..thoughts and words run through my head like quick flashes of slow motion traffic lights that are winding around the posts during heavy winds...

i love art and im trying to explore every form of media while i still have the time..

i feel like i have been cheating people..like they dont see me..they see who i want them to see...l have lost the person i was in high school..this reader and deep thinker..i havent had a deep though in 4 years...maybe its the relocating to college that has stopped this..but its time to take it back and its the most exhilarating feeling...like now im going to be this multi dimensional person...as cliche as it sounds...you have to love yourself and i feel like i havent the past few years....but im coming around finally to liking myself...which is the first step...

hang on....its gonna be a ride that shakes the core of everything you believe in and ever thought you could think..

these words and thoughts make me human..and there is nothing else id rather be.

these are some photos i took in italy...a few of my faves...i'll put up some more when i get the time..

update:
Life is actually going according to plan. I am going to email some more bands to try to keep a consistent swing in trying to shoot bands. The one and only time that I did was quite fun and the results weren't bad.

Documentary on the Lower East Side is actually going better than I planned..I think I have really gotten a feel for what the marketplace is like down there. I hope that my essay works well in general. I tend to get discouraged when I see other people's work in my class. My friend in my class is doing his project on me...(yep!)...I hope that they come out ok. I saw the negatives and they didnt look too bad.Even if they come out weird at least that day in the city was super fun..

my late class got cancelled tonight due to all the crazy snow madness outside...I now like the snow just cause I can be inside and enjoy it from afar..

signin off...

Lauren

ps-the anniversary is a great band,and naps rock (i think i will now substitute them for coffee)

its been a while...

well last night I had my first encounter with band photography..something I am trying my hand in...I got the photos developed today and they came out pretty good i think.some points during the shoot i had to question whether or not I was really there or it was some weird wacky dream...i hope that I can work with them again..it was alot of fun.of course half a roll into the shoot there was a little bit of band drama...it was resolved after a while...i got 3 rolls which isnt that much..but they were getting restless after a while....

got my documentary on orchard street started today....hope those come out..and some motion shots of the handball courts...

thats it..

"The Rival"

If the moon smiled,she would resemble you.
You leave the same impression
Of something beautiful,but annihilating.
Both of you are great light borrowers.
her O-Mouth grieves at the world; yours is unaffected,

And your first gift is making stone out of everything.
I wake to a mausoleum;you are here,
Ticking your fingers on the marble table, looking for
cigarettes,
Spiteful as a woman,but not so nervous,
And dying to say something unanswerable.

The moon,too,abases her subjects,
But in the daytime she is ridiculous.
Your dissatifactions,on the other hand,
Arrive through the mailslot with loving regularity,
White and blank,expansive as carbon monoxide.

No day is safe from news of you,
Walking about in Africa maybe,but thinking of me.

..Just wanted to share one of my favorite poems by Sylvia Plath...